It Didn't Kill You

Once upon a time, I was tested... I lost it all, I lost myself, purpose, hope, friends, faith, my home, etc. I could have been standing on the sun and this time of my life would have still been the darkest. A time when I could not feel love and I did not know how to give love.  A time where I had no idea who I was like literally looked in the mirror and could not see anything but a body. I got close to the mirror and looked in my eyes and I didn't see anything. The most I ever felt is when I was high, or hanging out. That's all I could feel was high... When I looked around everyone seemed to be doing the same thing, but I knew if I stayed the same as everyone else I would have failed myself.  That was the hard part though, like how do you break free from the norm when that's the last thing you have left? Yet, one day I DID IT. I was on the edge of the cliff and i jumped! I figured what could be worse than the way I was living. I DID IT I let go of the toxic people, I fast...

"walk by faith" is a phrase that we hear on a daily, but what does it really mean? To me walking by faith is standing strong in your convictions and pushing forward no matter what your circumstances are. It took a while for me to build my faith to where it is now and it is still growing daily. There are definitely situations that break me down and make me question God, but I had to realize that everything im going through is really for the betterment of my journey and making me stronger.  Some things that I do to keep my faith are going to God instead of people because ultimately every human is going through their own storms and there is nothing that another human can do to bring you eternal happiness. I use to think that people can give you happiness and love, but actually, you can only create those things with people, they cant give it to you. The moral of the story is if you believe in God the way you say you do, then it is up to you to cultivate that relationship with him...