T E S T E D
Once upon a time, I was tested...
I lost it all, I lost myself, purpose, hope, friends, faith, my home, etc. I could have been standing on the sun and this time of my life would have still been the darkest. A time when I could not feel love and I did not know how to give love. A time where I had no idea who I was like literally looked in the mirror and could not see anything but a body. I got close to the mirror and looked in my eyes and I didn't see anything. The most I ever felt is when I was high, or hanging out. That's all I could feel was high... When I looked around everyone seemed to be doing the same thing, but I knew if I stayed the same as everyone else I would have failed myself. That was the hard part though, like how do you break free from the norm when that's the last thing you have left? Yet, one day I DID IT. I was on the edge of the cliff and i jumped! I figured what could be worse than the way I was living. I DID IT I let go of the toxic people, I fasted, I went through the loneliness, I went through the fear, and the doubt. I prayed during deep pain when all I wanted to do was get high until I started to feel. Until I looked in the mirror and saw my soul, I saw my beauty, I saw my worth. I felt free. I may not have been able to decipher other emotions, but freedom ran through me like air in a dark alley. I smiled for the first time and I could feel how good a smile is supposed to feel. So this is your sign to jump... take the leap to find yourself. Step into your purpose. You do not feel what the next person feels, things do not affect you the same way it affects other people, and once you take that into consideration you will soar. Stop molding yourself to be what the world wants, and mold yourself to what the world needs. Its in you, not on you, just listen!!
Be blessed and stay well.
I lost it all, I lost myself, purpose, hope, friends, faith, my home, etc. I could have been standing on the sun and this time of my life would have still been the darkest. A time when I could not feel love and I did not know how to give love. A time where I had no idea who I was like literally looked in the mirror and could not see anything but a body. I got close to the mirror and looked in my eyes and I didn't see anything. The most I ever felt is when I was high, or hanging out. That's all I could feel was high... When I looked around everyone seemed to be doing the same thing, but I knew if I stayed the same as everyone else I would have failed myself. That was the hard part though, like how do you break free from the norm when that's the last thing you have left? Yet, one day I DID IT. I was on the edge of the cliff and i jumped! I figured what could be worse than the way I was living. I DID IT I let go of the toxic people, I fasted, I went through the loneliness, I went through the fear, and the doubt. I prayed during deep pain when all I wanted to do was get high until I started to feel. Until I looked in the mirror and saw my soul, I saw my beauty, I saw my worth. I felt free. I may not have been able to decipher other emotions, but freedom ran through me like air in a dark alley. I smiled for the first time and I could feel how good a smile is supposed to feel. So this is your sign to jump... take the leap to find yourself. Step into your purpose. You do not feel what the next person feels, things do not affect you the same way it affects other people, and once you take that into consideration you will soar. Stop molding yourself to be what the world wants, and mold yourself to what the world needs. Its in you, not on you, just listen!!
Be blessed and stay well.
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