INTIMACY

Mommy never hugged me 

She never rubbed me just because 

Or held me close just because

When I grew up , I chased after intimacy 

Chasing things that could make me

Feel warm inside since I felt so cold 

Too Young to feel this cold 

A kid should be loved, a kid should 

Be held tight and brought in close to a parents heart 

If they don’t they’ll look for intimacy without any love at all 

They’ll give their body away just to be held tight

Body after body , until I was a shallow vessel

Many nights I cried all alone from the pain of growth but

Now I hold myself at night 

When things feel uncomfortable I pray 

Knowing that God is near , to love me ,Hear me , talk with me , and hug me tight

I trust that God has blessings with everything I want/need so that I never have to sacrifice priceless things like my body 

I am intimate with myself 

So when I find someone that I want to be

Intimate with, I know what I like and what makes me feel good 

Practicing mindfulness in my self care routines 

Learning how I feel , how touch and taking care of myself feels. 

Allowing myself to be intimate to others without thinking of sexual similarities 

Building relationships that are intimate without compromise but with intimacy that heals, and where love can be found & cultivated. 

Make sure you remember intimacy doesn’t mean sex , it’s closeness. 

don’t be afraid to be close to others , physically, mentally, and spiritually because it builds long term relationships and positive ones at that. 

There’s never anything you should have to give first in order to be close to someone after. 


Intimacy. 




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