It Didn't Kill You

I always want to please everyone I love and to be there at their beck and call, but then I realized that yeah ok fine, I do what others want to make them happy but what about for myself. I have this huge problem with telling the people I care for no or doing things for myself. I had this mindset that if so and so can move like that or if so and so has the energy then why can't I. Like I would compare myself to others so much because of wanting to be the best and please everyone until I didn't even trust myself. I would make decisions for my benefit and second guess myself. I always felt like if I wanted to be a certain way I had to act like the person who had what I wanted. Like when it came to friendships or even a lifestyle, but after many lessons, I realized that this thinking is all wrong. I don't know if I adopted this mindset because of how I raised but it was certainly causing me trouble. Living with that mindset I was so uncomfortable because, in all honesty, I wasn...

I sometimes dislike the times we live in now, because it is driven by "perfection".  On social media, all you see is the green side of people's lives, but we all know that there are some dry patches behind that camera. Seeing people live luxuriously all the time can cause some of us to chase other peoples dreams for all the wrong reasons. As well, it can cause some people to lose their authenticity. I'm tired of this like it really gets under my skin. Everyone wants to be IT, the star,  or the one. Yet, I have met many people who are truly amazing but are wrapped up is this social standard. They don't feel comfortable being the person God has made them. Don't be the person who reads this and says "well they just need to learn how to be themselves" because a lot of yall have pretended to be someone else for so long you don't even know who you are. That's why some of yall act out, always drinking, smoking, having sex, gossiping, etc. You do eve...

I really wasn't sure what I was going to write about. I had a whole different topic in mind and there was nothing that was really sticking in my soul. There was nothing that really drove me to write until I came across a message that really triggered my journey to a new level. The message was basically on acceptance and although that may be common sense to some to accept where you are or your struggles. I know for a fact it was not that way for myself. I was aware of where I was in life, but I wasn't ready to accept it. I was really just in a place where there was no gratitude in my heart. I was thankful, but in the same breathe I wanted more. There was this feeling within me that wanted to go farther, but it just wasn't time. Once I saw this message on acceptance all the confusion, insecurities, and doubt fell away. Once I accepted the fact that I can not change what God already had written out, my faith grew and the storm in my mind cleared. I took time to accept my life...

 In today's times there are so many people ranting and raving about self love... (lol people like me), but in all seriousness loving yourself is well worth it. Sometimes I forget that I come first though. I get caught up in the circumstances and not the bigger picture which happens to the best of us, but that bounce back is what it's all about. There have been times in my life that have completely left my heart in shreds to the point where I looked in the mirror and didn't recognize the person in it. To be even more real with you guys i'm actually going through a situation that has me lacking love for myself now, but see lucky for me i've been here before so I can weather through the storm. I know that God is going to see me through and at the end I will blossom and be met with blessings. This is the same reality for all of us you just have to believe it. I am a believer that I am weathering through this setback so that I can tell you guys to listen to that TIN...